I do not know about anyone else, but man I am happy to have good-bye to 2018.
A little Back story on 2018
2018 was a hard year for me in almost every aspect of life. We were struggling financially due to my husband losing his job at the end of 2017. We were fervently waiting to see what God would have next.
I struggled with understanding the why behind it all, I dealt with bitterness and anger. I could not understand and still have times now, how he could have such peace in this time. I did not get that gift. That Peace? I prayed for it but it never came.
Sometime in the middle of the year by Gods grace and His guidance I had realized that I fell into a deep bout of depression. I did not feel like I was useful in any facet of life. It was really hard to realize that I, the one who is always happy and joyful and smiling and telling others that life is too short not to laugh, yeah me, I was dealing with depression. I didn't enjoy being with my family or even friends. I buried myself in podcasts and my phone playing mindless games. It took a lot to make me happy. It is true what they say. Depression takes on a different role in everyone and makes you someone you do not recognize. For me it was that I was not good enough. Even though I know that God says I am good enough. I didn't chose medicine or a therapist to help me get through it. I have an amazing supportive husband and an amazing Father in heaven and those are the things I chose. I am not saying I am cured but I can say that I do have good days. I can see more positive things and I am enjoying my family more now too. One thing I have to give credit to is a book a dear friend bought me called "Girl Wash your Face" by Rachel Hollis, Um can I say amazing! Love this book, it talks about stop believing the lies about who you are,so you can can become who you were meant to be, which is what I was doing. I was believing lies about who I was or wasn't, I fell into the trap of comparing myself to other women. A big no no.
For 2019
So every year I pick a word for the year and this year I have prayed and prayed and the words that keeps coming to my mind is "Courage". To find the strength and determination in every aspect even if it is scary. Stepping out in faith and doing new things because that is what is going to help me to become what God wants me to be.
So this year, I am not making a resolution. I made a few goals, but no resolution. I am taking charge of my life and the person I am. Who God created me to be.
One of the things I am doing is going on a journey. This journey is about weight loss and becoming healthy in every aspect including spiritual, but not your typical am going to lose this much in this much time. I am blogging my adventure. If you want to follow me in this adventure visit my blog at https://thejourneytothenewme2019.blogspot.com/, I have already posted my first blog. I will be putting weekly updates up there. I am not one to post like this, but this is important to me and it's for me. I would love the support of people around me in any way.
For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Jeremiah 29:11
This is my year the year that I start becoming the woman that God has intended for me to be.
One of my favorite songs lately and will be my theme song this year, since music relates to me so much, is the song Different by Micah Tyler. It is a powerful song and is my desire this year.
Hear it here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xUT4trsrBCw
Happy New Year everyone!
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