Finding Joy

Hi everyone ,I have been thinking so much about this blog lately and the need and want to be writing but the lack of time I have to do it. So As my family (all boys) are in the other room watching Power Rangers, something I just don't find super interesting, I thought... I should write.
Now I must say I have been sitting at the computer for about 10 minutes trying to decide what I wanted to write about. haha
But we are friends right? So I can tell you how I am doing and the things that are going on my mind.

This week has been kind of emotional and very tiring. I mean I had all the feels this week. My husband was out of town on business and the day he left I actually cried, he doesn't know this. But I could not understand why I was being so emotional and I did not know what was going on. But I mean I went from one thing to the next all week like a robot. I had a lot of stuff going on at work as one of my larger clients was going through a transition and it did impact me. So maybe that is some of it. I really do not know, but I do know I could not have gone through it successfully as I did without God's help and the courage that he is teaching me to have in all situations.
I kept asking Why am I feeling this way? I guess I just don’t have it today. What will it take for me to feel happy?

So last night I sat down and pulled out my Bible because I needed some encouragement and some peace and when you feel down in the dumps, it is always best turn to God for joy. Meditate on God’s Word for peace. And rely on God for the strength to break out of your funk. ( not my words, something I heard a speaker say once).
So I opened up to Psalms. I have a few verses that I go to that usually always help when I am in a funk.

Pslam 42:11 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,for I will yet praise him,my Savior and my God. - This verse means so much to me because I picture it as if Jesus was talking to me, asking me what is wrong, ad reminding me to put my hope in Him.


Psalm 118:14 -The Lord is my strength and my defense,he has become my salvation. -This one is just a good reminder that I am protected at all times.
Psalm 28:7 The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. - Oh this one is close to my heart because I love worshiping and music and singing.

Then for fun there is this one.
1 Corintians 4:8,9 We are often troubled, but not crushed; sometimes in doubt, but never in despair; there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend; and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.

This one is the one that especially helped me. I am crushed sometimes and feeling hopeless. Even when I feel lonely, which has been a lot lately, I can always have someone that loves me and is willing to listen.
This is so helpful because I am not one that likes to talk about all my issues, not even with my best friend or my husband. I just bottle it up. (not healthy, I know!) But it is what I do, I do not want people's pity and I do not want to be the friend that is portrayed and never happy.
I want to be a light to others. This verse reminds me that I need friends to talk to, and God has blessed with some amazing friends.

So I guess this is to say it you are troubled or feeling down, know that God loves you so much that he wants to hear these troubles and he has given you people to share life with. So share.
Hey I am talking to myself on this one too.

Until next time...