I had the weirdest thought this morning as I was walking my son into his first day of preschool ( I know crazy that he is in preschool!). I thought to myself hmmmm If I would have got pregnant and had a child right when my husband and I started trying I would have an almost 8 year old going into 2nd or 3rd grade! Um Crazy!!!! I could not even imagine have a 2nd or 3rd grader, that is the farthest thing from my mind, I mean I cannot even fathom the fact that I am a mom and have a child in preschool let alone 2nd grade!
It just made me laugh! We never can picture the road that we are going to travel down in life and it definitely is never the one that we thought it would be.
I remember the very beginning of wanting a child so bad a trying to get pregnant and being surrounded by people having children and the preschoolers in my class. I used to think to myself, I want a preschooler, I want my child to go to school where I work and I cannot wait to hear the words "I Love You" from my child! I used to sit and dream about this and think about when I would be a parent being talked to by my child's teacher about the things they will learn in the class.
Well Monday night at the parents orientation for my sons school, it hit me. What I had dreamed about and wanted for soo long is actually coming true and I'm not ready! LOL
Really I am not ready for my child to not be with me. I stood there listening to the teachers tell the different things they do in a daily routine and then later all these people talking about education and stuff, and I actually teared up. (I have been really emotional lately, Part of being a female I guess) And then my husband put it into perspective today after we dropped our son off, This is the first day of 14 years of going to school, not counting college and this is the first of many thousands of trips taking him to school. I just can't believe that! This is his first of 14 first days of school! the first day of him not being with me, the first day of his journey of becoming who he is meant to be! I can't believe my child is starting his education already! I mean where did the time go? And to think I could have a 2nd grader. I mean I know God has a plan for our lives, but I've thinking a lot of the what if's. What if I had finished my schooling all at once where would I be, What if I never got laid off at CCS would we be in Sacramento, What if I had a child right away would I have Tyler?, Would I have the same friends? The answers to those are probably not, and that is why things don't ever happen how we plan. I would not know the amazing people I do now, I would not have the faith I do, I would not be able to look back and see the path God has led me down. it has been a bumpy path, but I can look back and see why I was put on the path I was. Because If I hadn't of gone down that path, I am not sure Tyler would be mine, and I am not sure I would be blessed to know the people I do., And I definitely could not picture my life without my little man! He is my little miracle and my son and I could not ask for a better child for my husband and I! I love that 8 years later I can finally hear my son tell me (about 50 times a day) "I love you mommy" and I bask in it every time, and I finally get to say I am the mom of Tyler , your student!
It took a long to wait for, but honestly this was so worth the wait!
It just made me laugh! We never can picture the road that we are going to travel down in life and it definitely is never the one that we thought it would be.
I remember the very beginning of wanting a child so bad a trying to get pregnant and being surrounded by people having children and the preschoolers in my class. I used to think to myself, I want a preschooler, I want my child to go to school where I work and I cannot wait to hear the words "I Love You" from my child! I used to sit and dream about this and think about when I would be a parent being talked to by my child's teacher about the things they will learn in the class.
Well Monday night at the parents orientation for my sons school, it hit me. What I had dreamed about and wanted for soo long is actually coming true and I'm not ready! LOL
Really I am not ready for my child to not be with me. I stood there listening to the teachers tell the different things they do in a daily routine and then later all these people talking about education and stuff, and I actually teared up. (I have been really emotional lately, Part of being a female I guess) And then my husband put it into perspective today after we dropped our son off, This is the first day of 14 years of going to school, not counting college and this is the first of many thousands of trips taking him to school. I just can't believe that! This is his first of 14 first days of school! the first day of him not being with me, the first day of his journey of becoming who he is meant to be! I can't believe my child is starting his education already! I mean where did the time go? And to think I could have a 2nd grader. I mean I know God has a plan for our lives, but I've thinking a lot of the what if's. What if I had finished my schooling all at once where would I be, What if I never got laid off at CCS would we be in Sacramento, What if I had a child right away would I have Tyler?, Would I have the same friends? The answers to those are probably not, and that is why things don't ever happen how we plan. I would not know the amazing people I do now, I would not have the faith I do, I would not be able to look back and see the path God has led me down. it has been a bumpy path, but I can look back and see why I was put on the path I was. Because If I hadn't of gone down that path, I am not sure Tyler would be mine, and I am not sure I would be blessed to know the people I do., And I definitely could not picture my life without my little man! He is my little miracle and my son and I could not ask for a better child for my husband and I! I love that 8 years later I can finally hear my son tell me (about 50 times a day) "I love you mommy" and I bask in it every time, and I finally get to say I am the mom of Tyler , your student!
It took a long to wait for, but honestly this was so worth the wait!
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