There is this concept I and many people that know me struggle with! Am I a stay at home mom? No but I run a business therefore I'm a working mom , but I stay home so I'm a house wife too, which means I should have all the responsibilities of a stay at home mom/ housewife. you know help keeping the house clean and doing all the errands for the house and raise my child and teach him and help him grow developmentally.
But wait a minute, I also have to take care of 7 other children a day besides my own!
This is a hard balance I have been trying to understand for almost 4 years now. Yes I am a stay at home mom/wife, but I am also a working woman. Yes my job is out of my home and includes a lot of my house work, but does that mean I should have to feel like I should get everything in the house done? I put these expectations on myself, like well I am home I should do the laundry, clean the kitchen, clean the bathrooms, dust etc.... but truth is i just don't have time in my day to get it all done because I have a job that takes 11 hours of my day away. and I beat myself up over this because I feel I should have everything done. I recently was in a discussion with someone and they were like I don't know why you don't get your housework done during the week so you don't have to on the weekend, and I was like yeah I know I need to work on that. What?!!! wait I can't I have tried. I have so much going on in my day from 7am until 6pm and yes i have 2 1/2 hours (on good days) where i have all kids napping to clean but that is also my time to relax and eat and workout if I can. So that time goes by so fast I could never get all the work done, yes if I didn't eat or rest I could easily but hey a girls got to take care of herself right?
I don't know why I feel so guilty sometimes, i think its because I see people look at me and are like yeah she doesn't work, and yes its true i don't go to work in a separate building, I still work everyday and usually way more hours than the normal person.
I also have people that view me as a stay at home person because they think i have the time to just hang out with them or act like I can just drop things and hang out or go on a play date. And yeah sometimes I can cause of the number of kids I have, but it really is hard cause a lot of people don't view me as a working woman even though I am!
So it is very hard for me to balance and remember which one I am because I am all 3! I am just trying to figure out to balance it all and st boundaries in my life so that I truly protect myself from trying to please everyone and in turn putting too much on my plate. I feel as though God has truly called me to do things with my life and I can't do them if I am constantly trying to be everything. I know we as woman try to do everything, but truth is we cant and if we do we end up sick. The most leading health problem in women is heart disease which is caused by stress and other things but mostly stress. So I think we all need to reevaluate our life and make sure there isn't too much on our plates, whether we put those expectations there or others did. We would all would be a little healthier if we just said no once in a while.
So it is very hard for me to balance and remember which one I am because I am all 3! I am just trying to figure out to balance it all and st boundaries in my life so that I truly protect myself from trying to please everyone and in turn putting too much on my plate. I feel as though God has truly called me to do things with my life and I can't do them if I am constantly trying to be everything. I know we as woman try to do everything, but truth is we cant and if we do we end up sick. The most leading health problem in women is heart disease which is caused by stress and other things but mostly stress. So I think we all need to reevaluate our life and make sure there isn't too much on our plates, whether we put those expectations there or others did. We would all would be a little healthier if we just said no once in a while.
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